It's been...one week

Well, today is the day.  Weigh in day...and if you see my tracker there you already know...down 12 pounds this week!!!  I was surprised it was that much to be honest.  Sure I got after it Monday and Wednesday last week...but then life got in the way.  I became too busy to be able to get to the gym and work out.  I was able to stick with the diet as much as possible....which I believe is what saved me.  I had every intention of getting to the gym Saturday morning but woke up feeling ill.  Had an awesome show Saturday night with the release of my band's EP.  Check us out if you haven't already HERE.  So I thought, Sunday....I'll get after it on Sunday....oh no, not the case.  I woke up with the worst back pain ever.  I could hardly walk, but still, the diet plan prevailed.  This morning I approached the scale with apprehension....step one, step two....the digits cycled.....then landed on 363.  Wow...12 pounds!?!  This is what motivation feels like....

Here's to week two!

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Track me...

So I've decided to add my tracker so that the world can see it...granted that all depends if the link works..ha.    Keep in mind though that I'll be updating my weight every Monday.  Anyhow...off night tonight...but I think that I may still go for a little while.  Isn't that crazy?  I don't have to go to the gym, but I WANT to go to the gym.  I wonder why?  What is it inside of me that wants to do this?  I mean, why do something that is so hard?  Being overweight and unhealthy is easy...just eat junk and do nothing...I can do that...there's no way you can mess that up.  Now before anyone reads that and says.."hey, I know big people who aren't unhealthy and/or active".  If anyone of you thought that, you've missed the point.  This is about ME....dig?  Very easy for ME to be big and lazy....I'm drifting here...anyhow.  For those that read my words, thanks for taking the time.  For those who read this and haven't talked to me in a while....give me a call.  I'd love to hear from you.  I do remember a time when I was in constant contact with my "friends"....that is one thing I do miss about the old me...

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keepin' on

today was not a good day.  I mean, as far as my journey goes....it was very nice!  despite my attitude about the equipment i still rocked over a mile on the'mill....that's what I'm calling it to make it sound cool..ha .  life just jumped up smacked me in the face today.....that old saying that everything is  fine, until  something changes... well hell...just put it this way, if you care about someone, tell them, 'cause you just never know...ya know?

#1

So...here's my blog.  I thought that this would be a great place to share my journey with everyone.  Everyone who cares to check it out anyway.  Anyone who truly knows me knows that I'm not one to easily share my feelings.  Not how I feel about topics, ideas, or things like that....but how I REALLY feel.  My absolute deep down inside feelings.  I have a friend who once told me that I'm the only person who could piss them off without saying a word.  This, for the most part, is true.  I come from a family that doesn't really put out there how they feel.  Sad, upset, afraid, depressed....you'll never hear these words come from my mouth.  I told a very close friend of mine that depression is all in your head.  Can you believe that?  I actually thought that you can just tell yourself, "hey, knock that shit off...you're not depressed anymore".  Ahh...boy how times have changed.  Enough of all that, let's get to the meat and taters of why this is here.  I have recently decided that I no longer like me.  I'm sick of how I feel on the inside.  I'm sick of my outward appearance, and sick of how strangers view me.  I'm most sick of hearing "Dan....you're just not the same YOU anymore".  Not the same ME?  How the hell am I not ME?  So, I've decided to do something about it.  Friday, June 15'th 2012, I joined a gym.  Monday, June 18'th was my first day.  Starting weight, 375.  My first day was a success!  1.75 miles on the treadmill.  I can't wait to go back.  I'll be updating this regularly...as I've found that writing is the only way I can really tell my soul's story......Like I told the facebook world on May 4th...
"The switch has been flipped....I've been staring at it for years.....not sure what I've been so scared of...failure? lack of support? hahahaha...man, and all this time I thought I had it all figured out. Remember this date people. SWITCH....FLIPPED!"


Indeed....